It was my dream to grow up, meet the perfect man, get married, have children and live happily ever after. I was raised by supporting parents and a loving community. I was not always the perfect daughter (none of us are), but I tried to be. I believed if I made good choices I could avoid heartache, struggle and my life would go just as I planned. I quickly learned that was not the case. Instead, I was lead on a path that would push me in ways I never thought possible.
I married young, thinking I was on track to forever happiness. But at just 22 my life changed. I was now divorced and a single mom. Being a single mom was hard. It was a challenge trying to find balance of motherhood, working and going to school. Even going on a date was a huge struggle. Being married to a broken man broke me. I lost all confidence in myself. I did not feel worthy, let alone attractive enough to find someone. Who would want to take on me, let alone my son?
I developed an eating disorder. As time went on my eating disorder became worse. It took over my thoughts and my days. There were many times I felt like giving up and no longer wanted to live. The only thing that got me through was my son. I was all he had. I was the one to show him how to be, how to live, how to behave and how to have faith. This meant I needed to change. I needed to find myself again. I needed to find the strength to become the mother he deserved. I needed to become a woman of confidence that was deserving of a man strong enough to be his father.
I mustered up the courage to ask for help. I got counseling and dug deep into my faith. This process did not happen overnight, but with the help of trained professionals, friends and family I was able to overcome my fears and struggles.
A few years later I met the most amazing man who makes me feel beautiful and special. I am no longer broken but feel loved and validated. I feel grateful everyday for the chance I had to change and become the mother my son needed and the woman I knew I could be.
The trials and challenges we go through in life are not meant to bring us down, they are meant to shape us into the person we are meant to become.
This is #mybrilliantconfidence story.
By: Rachel Brawley
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